Maybe because I was trying so hard and consciously trying to make it happen.
He began, half-consciously, by applying through the fuller medium the lessons of design which he had learned from C. P. E.
The policy was forced upon it; and was only pursued consciously when it became obvious.
The only difference was that an authority at first instinctively assumed came to be consciously recognized and formally defined.
In a certain wide sense the textual criticism of the New Testa ment began as soon as men consciously made recensions and versions, and in this sense Origen, Jerome, Augustine and many other ecclesiastical writers might be regarded as textual critics.