mixed feelings - Phrases/Idioms
The American Heritage® Dictionary of Idioms by Christine Ammer. Copyright © 2003, 1997 by The Christine Ammer 1992 Trust. Published by Houghton Mifflin Harcourt Publishing Company. All rights reserved.
A partly positive and partly negative reaction to something, as in I have mixed feelings about this trip; I'd love to go but don't want to ride in that tiny car.